So I apologize for the lack of blogging lately… I had a lot to sort out, and I’m not sure if I’ve sorted all of it out (OK, I’m sure that I haven’t), but life is what it is, no?
For those who don’t know, I’m back in Oregon. If you’ll recall, Mike and I decided a while back that we wanted to give this relationship a real shot and the only way to do this was to be together. The plan then was to move to SF, but we also knew that if we waited too long, it would be too hard. So, I took an under-the-table typing job, made $1500 and came home. It’s not permanent – we still plan on the move to SF – but he has a few things to sort out first and they have to be done here. So, we’ve moved into an extended stay hotel - oddly enough, right next to the apartment he lived in and right down the street from where I worked when we first met.
I’ve been back for almost two months now. We’ve been very hermit-like, but we’ve had to get to know each other all over again. I mean, we went from a really odd relationship – where he didn’t want a future with anyone, even me – to me living 3200 miles away and realizing we *do* want a future together – to living together. Not exactly how it’s supposed to go. But we’re doing it – and considering him and considering me – I think we’re doing quite well.
I’m not going to lie to anyone and say it’s easy. It’s not easy. We’ve had some knock-down, drag-outs (one of which prompted someone to actually leave the hotel. We only yelled for, like 15 minutes! Sheesh!) but I’m finally comfortable enough and secure enough to say that we’re both in this for the long haul.
There are no guarantees in life. I can’t promise anyone that he and I will be together forever – or that we will be together next Tuesday – but I know that we’ve got two very important things going for us: we both love each other very much and we are both committed to making this work. That’s a pretty solid foundation upon which to start building a future.
Whether I’ll continue this blog or start a new one, I’m not sure. For those here in town, hit me up and see if we can get together. I’m finally ready to start hanging out again – I think. Not sure. I mean, I’m still flipped out about what the hell I’m going to do with my life as I have no fucking clue. So I’ll have some off days – but on my “on” days – I just might be up for lunch.
